I thought I was doing well. And I thought that I was hiding it...at least more than I was.

I took a piss upstairs. I said i would be right back and he asked where i was going. I gotta take a piss i told him.
Looking in the mirror I saw my pupils. They were in a state of excitment and then this excited me more. They were big. Adrenaline is my stimulant. I didn't wash my hands. There were no towels. It was a "tom Waits day", twofold.