"Crystal, this is not the neighborhood to be sleeping alone back there." So Ashley gave me her knife and I held it open in my left hand while I slept in the backseat. I wasn't concerned but it eased the others' minds.

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Snake oil...and two big fucking glasses of whiskey and lots of sunglasses it night. Pens and napkins are what the stories of life are written on. We're selling elixers and that's what everyone is looking for. We stand to be rich. -Cash.

I looked all night and I didn't see any meteors but everybody else saw them. "Juice, stars are fallin all over themselves tryin to get back down to earth."

     I roll down the window and the big dipper is big and the road wind is on us. Wind on our sweat in the road breeze cuz summer in iowa is full on and we handle it in this car tonight. Theres a meteor shower tonight and we're takin the back route outta the city into the dark. We drove into the abyss last night & for driving into the abyss we didn’t hit too many things. Only a few scratches on the scion and a good story to tell that should been enough to scare you sober. But I guess we don't get scared..

     "Crystal, good cd," she screamed against the wind and above the bass.

     "Good. Its only this one song so we're gonna be listening to it for awhile."

     "Jeramy, I don't remember going in reverse that far."

     "It woulda taken em a loooong time to find yer bodies in that creek!" she screamed back at us again.

     "No it wouldn't...all they would’ve had to do is follow the tire tracks through the yard down into the forest.”

     We gave them a hundred to not call the cops. I pulled a hundred dollar bill out of my back pocket.                                         08/2010

Snakes on my bones.

     The danger here is that i am liable to kill myself and it's hard to kill me but i like life hard and standin up. Push it push it. And its a night of hard sympathy or no sympathy. I gotta mean bone in me tonight and it takes all I  have to not drive that car with the taillight out now. Babys born with a sensual bone and I can't do nuthin bout it. And beats take me. My body goes on the little that it gets like few others. Scientists say that the bigger the organism the more efficient it's energy use. God i gotta fight someone tonight. I need adrenaline.

"I's made'a armor baby."

     Godbless Studio 13 & Godbless Iowa City in all it's glory and all of it's weird sexual fuckers. I shake when i get the withdrawals in my black bra. No shirt and my jaw trembles in the dark on the porch smoking a cigarette. I need some More. Some of my friends are in the bedroom in their skin only and one is passed out on the carpet with his phone in his hand waiting for the message that gets his cock sucked. It didn't come in time. 

     And then it doesn't end and it only goes on for me...as it usually does. The thunderstorm rolls in and the lightening was already there and I wanna be an animal in the forest in the night with sharp teeth and blood on my mouth. I wanna see better than the owl.